నా ఈ చిన్న జీవితంలోని ప్రతి పుట నా అత్మీయులందరికీ తెరిచిన పుస్తకమే. నాకు . చెప్పాలనిపించింది . . రాయాలనిపించింది . .' నీ సోధి మాకెందుకు నీ సెల్ఫ్ డబ్బా మాకెందుకు అంటారా?' If not . . In initial days, I used 2 close my eyes fr hrs n hrs 2 meditate . . Know nothing abt my Self or Spirit or the journey within . . My ambitious mind's wish is 2 achieve heights in my life . . And felt that I can reach my worldly goals thru meditation . . Days n yrs passed by . . And my attitude was changed due 2 d tremendous joy within . . Materialistic goals were replaced by spiritual goals . . With my spiritual experiences ; Aims ambitions n goals wr vanished by living in d moment . . Enjoyed the silence being alone n being in a crowd . . Started d day wt meditation spent d leisure in med n ended it wt meditation . . Faced many n many problems 2 stop my spiritual journey . . Became strong n stubborn wt al d challenges . . Still demnd Him fr d next challenge as He is my only goal . . In a precarious position, prayed Him . .that, " Thou art d real goal of my life n I'm in Thy path Thy knw evrtng n I'm leaving evrtng 2 Thee As I was tired 2 sail against d flow I wl stop readg prayg n medit; Tho, I doesnt wish 2 waste my lifetime Tho, I'm leaving evrtng 2 Thee I wl SERVE TO DESERVE ". So I cont my journey 2 serve much more vigorously . . In my limits n limitations as 2 d prev experiences . . Accepting d tngs that cum in my way . . And I'm just being in evr act of my day . . Tho, my eyes r not closed; enjoying d med each n evr movement . . Meanwhile, v came 2 Art of Living together . . N I bec Blesser n did Teacher training cources in AOL . . But was stopped as a tchr bcoz of local pol . . Tho depressed; cont my Sadhana along with Sudarshan Kriya . . Became GuruPuja Pundit; performing Gurupuja's wrvr req . . Al this hapnd in d last 26 yrs . . Again after a long time . . My heart is demanding 2 set a goal fr my life . . And 2 achieve sumtng in this life . . Had faith in d Devine . . Altho I knw d fact that He is d Ultimate goal . . My heart is calm n serene; not worrying abt d real goal . . The only aim/wish is 2 set d materialistic goals . . 2 strengthen myself 2 do much more seva . . Don't knw whthr going forward/ my journey is in reverse . . Let the reversal journey b 2wards my Lord . .